In "Love Actually", When Keira asked that guy (sorry I forgot his name) why he always pretended not liking her while he was actually deep in love with her. He, being the best friend of Keira's husband, said, "it's a self-preservation thing".

 

I still remember the days when we, or at least I, would use all the strength to love someone. But since when did we all learn to protect ourselves?

 

A friend said, "It's not that he doesn't make me happy. I don't feel happy because I feel I like him too much. More than how he likes me. So I am leaving." Come to think about it, that's some strange logic.

 

Another friend felt drawn to a boy who's in a relationship, a steady one. I think secretly loving someone who's not available is like being a coward. You protect yourself by choosing to love someone you can't love.

 

And I have friends who have un-exclusive relationships with different people. You avoid the responsibilities and protect yourself by choosing not to develop serious relationships.

 

I don't know. I think this whole love & relationship thing is even more difficult to grasp than a PhD project. I am not good at intimacy either. I protect myself by not giving away myself too much, by maintaing certain distance with anyone.

 

Maybe that's the adult world. I don't like it.

 

 

 

Does anyone else find this sentence strangely appealing? Exotic, even. Especially with a little southern accent.

 

When I heard Josh Lucas say it in Sweet Home Alabama, with that lazy bad-boy tone, I felt wierdly drawn to it. I guess my American friends won't understand it. I heard this again today. Twice, actually. Ah... sometimes language has beautiful power.

 

Is that so...

And we allllllllmost beat Umiami. 15-20 and we were only 6 yards away from a winning touchdown. Sooooooooo close. Well, yes, Umiami's got a depleted squad (due to some serious fighting last week and 13 players were suspended). But still, getting so close to winning over Umiami is something you don't usually see here in Duke, on the football ground.

 

Oh, and in case any of my friends in China are reading this, the "football" here isn't really the football played in the rest of the world. That's called "soccer" here.

 

It's the first time that I ever went to a football game. Everyone knows that Duke football sucks and they haven't won a single game this season. But it's a beautiful Saturday with gorgeous sunshine and I didn't wanna be the pathetic loner working with mice. The game turned out to be really exciting and we almost pulled off an upset. When we got to the stadium (after my friends had enough beer in the parking lot), it was 0-17 with Duke scoring absolutely nothing. There were about half-half fans from either school, which surprised me because I wasn't expecting so many Duke people. We began cheering for Duke and of course, my friends began yelling and challenging the Miami fans with not-so-nice words. (At certain point, I was like....hmmmm, maybe it's safer to keep away from these crazy guys.hehe.) And miraculously, Duke was doing better and better in the final quarter and we got 15 points while Miami only gained 3. The stadium heated up. I was actually feeling nervous. 3 minutes. Miami's offense. We stopped them! 90 seconds, we started at 50 yards. A terrific pass and we were 6 yards away from the touchdown! Everyone's holding their breaths. Securities were lining up around the ground in case people would rush the groud should we won. 3 seconds! Just one last play! Awwwwwwwwwwwww..... the ball was intercepted. We lost. But proudly.

 

The benefit of being with a group of crazy graduate students, who yelled, shouted, cursed, and danced all the way to the end, was that we were on TV~~~haha...No idea what channel would broadcast it and surely no one that I know would watch a Duke football game on TV, but it's still cool to be captured on camera. haha. 

 

I guess now my friends are still in the parking lot drinking even more beer. I seriously hope that they won't do anything stupid to release the excessive energy they saved up for rushing the ground. haha...

 

 

hoho, even has a camera in it.. I didn't expect that..:)

Still the same phone number.

Yesterday, a friend of mine told me excitedly, "I kissed him!" Oh, god, you should see that happy expression on her blushing face. Even her eyes looked like shining. It reminded me how sweet love could be, when it just begins. 

Another friend is facing long-distance problems. The joy and excitement of falling in love has gradually settled down, and now the problem of future surfaces.  Living on either side of the planet, one's night is the other's day. What's there waiting in future? If being together means giving up one's own journey and following the other's pace, is love really the only thing that matters?

A friend from high school is feeling a bit blue recently. The girl he loved for years just got married and he attended the wedding. Almost all my high school friends are married or planning to get married, yet he's still single. I'm sure he already let go and moved on long time ago, but sometimes it's just always there deep in your heart. Talking about wedding, the boy I liked at that time is getting married soon, too. Luckily I won't be there.

well, I think I should stop watching ramance movies. I've been very sentimental recently. I like being sensible more.

A friend recommended a short home-made video on youtube called "Yellow Fever". It was hilarious. The manga-like acting, the funny sound effect, the cute actor, the T-shirt with Chinese characters 白人看不懂 (meanning: white people can't understand this)...It's just frigging funny. Maybe a little bit racism,yes, but not in a hostile way. A lot of stereotype things, but yeah, things are called stereotype because they do frequently happen!

 

A brief search of "yellow fever" totoally surprised me. I didn't even know there's such a trend. Just facebook alone has about 40 groups related to yellow fever. As I understand, the expression is no longer limited to the sexual preference (especially non-Asian guys for Asian girls), it represents any preference for anything Asian, such as food, culture, pop music and movies, anime...It totally surprised me that so many people claimed (at least they say) to have "yellow fever".  While I surely don't feel like this way around here, even though it's pretty populated by Asians. I actually met someone who told me that he hated Asian food! (I didn't know such people exsited, hahaha..kidding)